"I've had a lot of worries in my life, most of which never happened." - Mark Twain
Last week our internet went down. We saw an Xfinity truck parked outside of our home office. Tom told them our internet went down. "You shouldn't have any disruption to your service," they replied.
Tom hooked up his laptop to 5G on his phone and continued his work day until service returned.
I often remind Tom, Ruth Anne and myself to be mindful of staying on WiFi whenever possible for just these kinds of occasions. If the internet goes down, Tom has to go on 5G to get his remote work done as a Systems Engineer for Virginia Tech.
Last Friday the internet speed slowed to a crawl. Tom called Xfinity and asked if anything could be done. They offered us an increase in speed for $20 less than we are paying per month for the next two years. After the customer service rep made the change, the internet went down completely. Tom was on the phone for a half hour trying to trouble shoot what happened. "It must be your router and modem," she concluded. "Your equipment is too old to handle the traffic and the new speed. It's also not secure."
They were able to restart the internet. In the interim, we purchased a new router/modem at Best Buy. When he was unable to get the internet up and running with the new router, he called Xfinity. An hour later we still did not have internet although we kept getting a message on our PC's that said, "Welcome to Xfinity. Here's how to download the app."
I downloaded the app while Tom was talking with a technician but when the app instructed me to "Click here to activate your internet," Tom told me to stop. He was concerned that we would be signing up for a new service that would incur more charges and enable us to access the internet from wherever we were.
There were several technicians working on the issue, each one more senior than the one before. When nothing seemed to work, they scheduled a technician to come out concluding that there must be an issue with the cable coming to our house. That didn't make sense to either Tom or me but we didn't know what else to do. They also advised him to contact Motorola and see if perhaps there was an issue with the configuration of the router.
Tom was on hold for an hour. I told him that he needed to get a good night's sleep for his run on Saturday. He hated to leave the call because he needs the internet for work and was feeling panicky about what was happening. Because we did not have the internet and wanted to conserve our 5G 'just in case' we didn't have access to our nighttime guided meditation that streams from Dr. David Hamilton's website.
I felt the panic and thoughts of 'what if's.' I calmed my mind focusing on the outcome I wanted rather than my fears. Our cat Jamie was picking up on the anxious vibes and she kept jumping in and out of our bed throughout the night. I used the interruption in my sleep to meditate. "Click here to activate your internet" kept coming back to me and I just knew in every fiber of my being that we needed to download the app again and have it take us through the steps we needed to get on line.
After the alarm went off and we took time for a silent meditation to start the day, the feeling was even stronger to download the app. Tom told me that he asked one of the technicians if he should download the app and they told him not to bother since that was for trouble shooting. Okay....
I put my phone on 5G and downloaded the Xfinity app after a security verification. The message on the screen said, "I see you have a new router. We'll have you up and running in no time."
The artificial intelligence took us through the steps of setting up the router. Tom used their prompts and shouted out loud, "I think this is going to work!"
We had internet up and running before breakfast and cancelled the technician's visit.
I was so proud of myself for listening to the promptings of Spirit especially after we kept receiving the message on our laptops to download the app! I had to let go of all of my worries and fears in order to clear the channel to receive the solution to the problem.
I realized that everything happened as it was supposed to. I learned a lot of soul lessons about patience, compassion, and kindness letting go of the urge to blame Tom for signing up for faster internet that led to the cascade of events. If only's never serve us - if only he let me sign on, if only the technicians suggested we sign on, if only we could have planned this out and averted a lot of stress.
As I've learned throughout these past 15 years of my healing journey, it is never the stress itself that causes 'problems' but rather how I respond to it. I was so grateful I could calm my thoughts and allow Spirit to guide me to an easy solution to getting our internet back on line. I was so grateful I could focus on gratitude knowing that this was a relatively minor problem that would get resolved one way or another. We would have everything we need. I thought about all those who were experiencing devastation in the wake of Hurricane Ian and how we are so blessed to have our home, belongings and are safe on dry ground. I was also very compassionate with myself for having had my thoughts spin out of control given my history of trauma and celebrated being able to connect to Source to get reconnected to the internet.
When we get still and have faith regardless of how circumstances may appear, we get connected to everything we need as the unseen reveals itself to us. We now have a much faster, more reliable and secure internet connection that will enable Tom to work from home more efficiently and have discovered that if we are experiencing any difficulties with our internet - there's an app for that!
From my heart to yours,
In health and wellness,
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